Month 19 | Er + Laparoscopy

7-30-2015

When it actually started I had already gotten my tears out. I feel at peace with the upcoming surgery. I am a little scared for it. But I know it is what needs to happen.

On June 25 I have a consult.

I'm scared for how long this journey of infertility might be. Though I know I will be a mother one day.

Day three of my cycle pain hit me around 3:00 pm. Sharp stabbing pain just like the pain last time. Only this time it was worse and lasted longer. We ended up at the er. I have never felt so much pain in my stomach. I was just can crying out "oh my gosh" over and over and rolling my body in my bed. We went to the hospital and it started to feel better. So we left. Then it started up again and so we committed and saw the dr. They ran all the tests. Did an ultra sound of my stomach and vaginally. There was some fluid in my right ovary. So a cyst could have burst??? But the pain was coming from right around my belly button. So painful. They gave me an iv and hooked me to monitors. With no diagnosis they sent me home. There's usually not a diagnosis for stomach pain. At least there was a helpful cure. The pain stayed gone and I'm here to live another day. It was brutal but starving pj day bored by my side for hours and we made it through.

If I have endometriosis, it could explain this pain. Part of me hopes I do so that they can stop this pain from ever happening again. And because they can scrape it out and I could have kids!!!

a few weeks in //

This month has been so nice.

So so nice NOT on any medication.

No hot flashes.

No depression.

No crazy mood swings.

Counting my blessings for a little break from it all.

Surgery //

I went in for surgery. My period was days over due. I was hoping I was just pregnant. But had already gotten like 6 negative tests and could just tell I was not. I knew it's because I wasn't on the medication.

Surgery was scary. I cried about to for weeks before. I was scared for the pain, the recovery & most importantly the results. If I had stage 4 endo then the next step would probably be hysterectomy which would be life shattering.

I went in for surgery. They found nothing. Nothing. They shot dye through my tubes and cleared it all out. In case there was any small blockages.

Recovery from laparoscopy was awesome. I did not take one narcotic. I lived on ib profin, Friday night lights, ice packs & heating pads. The day after surgery I went to Walmart and drove a cart. Then I was exhausted. So I took a nap. Later the day I sat poolside.

My incisions hurt the first few days and my throat from the tube down it while I was under. Mostly what hurt was being filled up with all that gas & being constipated.

That hurt bad. So day three was probably the worst. But by the weekend I was cleaning my house and going to parades and arcades.

Monday back to work.